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Trying 2 get back 2 wat was called once "MY LIFE" trying 2 4get the feeling of luv , hope & passion which i enjoyed 4 some wonderful tym

Confused………

wishing 2 taste the sweetness of luv again - I try 2 recontact her - stunned by her last written words on my mob. which BLOCKING me like a big Ugly NOOO sign ( I REFUSE U ) She cannt b more clear or frank.

amazed by the toughness of her heart & blindess of mine, feeling insulted, my dignity is hurted much than i - even called cold blood - can take … tears rise into my eyes as months b4 , i stop myself 4m trying 2 contact her ….

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going 2 bed wz mind full of stormy thoughts ,,, blaming myself 4 wat i said abwt her ,,,, i knew she nvr cheated me ,, i knew I CHEATED MYSELF AS ALWAYS ,,, i tried 2 blame her 4 my sadness not to feel responsable 4 my own mistakes

strange dreams … i dreamed of a huge terrible black FLy in size of a dog in ou

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Every time I thought i found it turned 2 b i was just imagining it . tell i found u , in the same moment i decided not 2 search any more , i was very angry & sad so i insisted not 2 come 2 u , BUT it was FATE u said it , it is FATE , NOBODY can resist FATE , I told u how much it does scare me 2 b very close 2 some1 , everytime  in the past i knew it was just me , i knew i’m only harming my self , tell i knew u & u knew me , i know it is not love ….YET . but as u knew i knew it is something more great than love U R MY TWIN , U R MY GUARDING ANGEL , can u say it is not true ?

i was afraid of exactly what is happening now , i was afraid of losing U ,

i accept u 2 refuse me as i always been rejected , i accept not beeing good enough 2 u , i accept the same phrase which killed my heart b4 " lets b friends " in ur case even beeing ur friend is much greater than i deserve , just knowing u is a gift 4m GOD , i didnt plan 4 it , i just found me & u 2gether , i accept 2 support u & b ur upperworld bro as u always called me , BUT i cant understand , really cant , 2 just lose u , without an explanation , I know i

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Pisces or Meena (February 19 - March 20)
Ruled by Neptune, Pisces is feminine negative mutable water sign. Pisceans have strong intuitive powers and are considerate and empathic taking on other’s pain without bothering for themselves. With a gentle, patient and malleable nature, they respond very readily to suggestions, good or bad. Pisces rules the feet, the toes and the fibrin of the blood. It’s this kind of self-sacrifice which keeps them going.

Ascendants of this signs are of a negative nature very much fond of luxuries that too often leads them to seek a life of ease. The Pisces people respond very readily to suggestions, whether they are good or evil. Feelings define Pisceans, and they not only feel their own burdens and joys but those of others as well. They have superb observation, concentration while listening and good grasping power. They have greater than average instinct for nature, beauty, traveling, luxury and pleasure. Pisceans are good in subordinate positions or a heads of small business. Their spiritual qualities can also develop their inclination towards a careers in the church or as mediums and mystics. Aquarians are the best match for Pisceans and two tend to bond romantically

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 طول عمرى بسمع ان الأبراج حرام … بس بعد كدة عرفت ان فيه فرق بين التنبؤات حس

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 They always say : " No pain No gain " 

        The problom is : " I always have the pain but nvr came the gain "

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   I believe we will B 4ever 2gether … friends or whatever … cause in 1way or another we belong 2 each other  

…………. " for my upper world sis "

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               I wanted 2 skip this part …

                  The part when she steps on my heart

I just wanted my life 2 b easy & my heart 2 rest at last

                        But every thing turned 2 b crazy & the dream vanished really fast

I felt anger or I felt pain? No… I felt the feeling of NOTHING again

As I always did b4, I laid down 2 cry … but this time I didn’t wish 2 die.

Its not hope its not despair it's just set, see & whisper

I didn’t want life or death but I didn’t know how 2 stop my breath

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